Post with a lot of pics!

Playing poker in the middle of night and discovered that Im from future xD And dont mind the coffee part, I had only one cup ^^

Time traveling :D I'm from future!

   

It really makes me laugh :D

I'm a woman ideal?

It is so good to sometimes talk with people who isn't interested in my looks but care to talk about deeper things. I'm pointing on the picture about the discussion about marriage. And totally opposite is the one where guy refers his new crush  looks similar to me. I know that I am the one who always gives relationship advice but me myself can not have a steady relationship. And to be honest I'm okey with it!

Hahahah, I really have no idea wheres my recent attitude has come from but I have started to face bullshit!   

If I want that my life would be easier and more positive I shouldn't postpone things that I know I don't want to deal with ever again. Like repellent suitors/stalkers

Lets call him boy because men have class : Hey, still sober?

Me: When I have talked with you or anyone else when im drunk? and why do you think im drunk or drinking? Please do not put me on the same level as others

Boy: hey cant i make a joke anymore, sorry

Me: bad joke man

I'm sorry for posting it but it really bothered me! If there is no point of talking with me than " hey, how r u, ok, i need to go now, bye" Then dont talk with me! I have better things to do than knowing you are just fine and leaving nowhere o.O? Its not my business! And I know I myself talk silly too but only with ones who know that im silly! And I just can't stand accusing me doing thing I didnt, like drinking because im not even that big drinker! Im just person who loves partying but without alcohol! Im crazy or lively enough to have fun without alcohol!

And in the middle of nigh Im talking with ghosts xD Best way to train your tummy!


But, I will finish now! Take care! ;)

Dark week

BHARTRHARI, "Against the Desire of Worldly Things"

Morn after morn dispels the dark,

Bearing our lives away;

Absorbed in cares we fail to mark

How swift our years decay;

Some maddening draught hath drugged our souls,

In love with vital breath,

Which still the same sad chart unrolls,

Birth, eld, disease, and death.

Somehow that poem makes me feel better...

I should mention that this time it will be a dark sad posting... I just need to write the sadness out of me. So, if you don't want to feel sad you should skip this post. I love you anyway!

Rest in peace dear Uku!

 This lovely picture of you and your brother and sister will always show that even though you are not among us you will always be in our heart and beside your loved ones, guarding them...leading them. Life is unfair but in one point or another we all die... But we should have the chance to life our lives first!!!

Today my dad told me another bad news... He told me that my uncle, who had already his tumor removed and after yesterdays check up they discovered that he has cancer and there is nothing to do anymore :'( He may have the radiation therapy but it wouldn't change anything. We visited them last week and there I saw how tired he was all the time. I can't imagine what my aunty feels :( So many years he has been beside her and now such thing will crush them both :'( I wish...I wish... ohh..I don't even know what to say...

It has been often said, that it is not death, but dying, which is terrible.

HENRY FIELDING, Amelia

Although I though I will make a video about alcohol and how people react when they are under the influence of it I realised I would be able to talk about it and to stay calm. After what happened at my brothers place when I cried for the first time from sadness and from fear...I just want to say, that alcohol isn't excuse for acting like they did... You can always change your life and saying that there is no point just shows how lazy ass, weak and careless person really is! I manage to live my life as single-parent  and has anyone heard me complaining?? I try to see positive things in everything that is the reason I smile and feel happy about my life! If I would think that there is no point smiling or how depressing the day is, then that makes me feel bad+ my baby and others who see me. Shining like sun makes me stronger and seeing others feel happy too gives energy to deal with the crap i hear everyday! So saying that alcohol lets u forget the problems or you drink because it makes you feel happy is just a stupid excuse to run from your problems!!!

I love you all! Have a smilingly nice day/night! <3 

Good morning with coffee ^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-KQHcu3vlVI&feature=youtu.be


Okey, I know I'm crazy but I had so much fun xD

Don't mind my crazy moves, I know they are freaking awsome xD Nooot! :D

Hahhaha,but yeah..im not so talky xD

Maybe later when i come back from shopping i will talk about the thing i need to talk...

And yes..My friend bited my ass yesterday xD


Laters;) <3

And sorry, I have no idea why it blog wont show my video -.-

Hey Cookies!

I know i promised to make a vlog or blog today but im sorry, its not gonna happen :(

The girls night has been to hard on me.. xD I know its not an excuse but i hope i will be done with the video tomorrow!!! :D So, Im really really sorry :)


We are watching movies..The dictator was amezing xD dear, my tummy hurts like hell or is it just alcohol that made me laugh like donkey! :D We will watch Madagaskar 3 now :D


Beer tastes like ...i dont know what xD ahahahha, i will just shut up..i will be sorry tomorrow about my today's blog :D


Anyway.. I love you all and Liisu! I'm so happy for you! Congrats!!!! You deserved it!!! :P


See ya tomorrow!! <3

Vlog numero 4 :P

   



So, I will add some pictures so it would be little clearer what we did...But sadly I dont have no pictures from our performance :/ But Enjoy!

  
If you have any questions about what ever then ask :) I will gladly answer them! Leave suggestions and ideas for next video.

Cookie-bye! 

Beautiful Girl

 


I have no idea why I love this song but I do and probably will love for long time... It kinda reminds me someone who has always said to me beautiful things and made me smile...I miss him a lot today :/ Where are you????


Its depressing day I guess...Im here, eating icecream and listening some good but sad songs that will make me think about my past and if i have made correct decisions... So far I have come to my senses that what conserns Emma, I have nothing to regret but about my relationships..then yeah..i wish they rathere would be non-excisted.....Have I ever had a relationship that i really miss?? To be truly honest then only relationship I miss are with guys I have cyberdated xD(Although they didn't last long but which of my relationships has?) Like seriously... Those where something deeper that just physical relationship...


And now its a nice time to say hello to my nice mood paladin! :)
Thank you for all the smiles you have brought on my face! I will always be with you, that's a promise because you are always in my heart! ^^ And I really like your father! That time makes me still laugh so hard because it was so cute and adorable and cookielicious! ^^ Ihihihihihi :)


You know its wierd when we don't talk O.o? I'm so used with it that everytime I come online you are there waiting for me and the fun time can begin :) Yeah, I should probably take things easily...Life some life....



I have no idea anymore what to do...

I can't wait my performance on Saturday though...! Hope this time everything will go fine and yeah...I just cant wait it :)


But sweet dreams or have a nice day, depends when you read this ^^ Love you all! (L)